Happy New Year! Its 2013, ya’ll!

It’s a New Year!  So, what to say about 2012?

It definitely had some glorious moments, and it had its downsides. Goal wise, I think I did pretty good. Lets take a look:

1. Start my own business- be successful enough by 2013 to leave my current position
2. Commit to entering “onederland” this year.
3. Pass all of my classes that I enroll in
4. Run the Portland Rock and Roll Half in 2:45 or less
5. Register and run Chicago Marathon
6. Start paying down past debts
7. Explore. Create. Dream. Love.

1) I started a new blog, and didn’t do much with it. Made some content, bought some ad space. Didn’t tell anyone about it. Its made about 2 dollars. So that’s a no go.

2) I could not have failed this goal harder if I tried. Between marathon training, having an excessively stressful roommate, having an extremely lazy roommate, and my own cognizance I ended up gaining back all the weight I had lost two years ago. As of today, I’m weighing in at a solid 319.9. These last couple of months I specifically stopped caring. My anxiety has gone through the roof and I didn’t know what to do. While my anxiety has since lessened, my weight has returned, and now I’m basically back to where I started when I started this blog. Its majorly disappointing, but I’m not going to focus on that part. I’m going to focus on moving forward.

3) I dropped two of the classes I enrolled in during the spring semester and only took one class for fall semester; Pilates. I’ll take it.

Can you see the pain radiating in my face? It hurts to look at.

4) I finished the Portland Rock and Roll half in 3:31.  The important thing is that I finished. I was super proud of that race, because it really convinced me how important it was that I stop smoking, which I did eventually.

I was cold and hungry and so damned tired.

5) I registered and “ran” the Chicago Marathon. I don’t think that day could have been any harder, but whatever craziness my life takes me in, I know that I can do anything, because completing a marathon is crazy and I did that.

6) My past debts are almost gone. All I have one relatively decent sized one, two small credit cards and my student loans. I’m so glad those bad decisions I made when I was in my early twenties aren’t holding me back anymore.

Bird’s Eye View Remix

7) I went to Oregon, Chicago and Colorado this year. I started remixing stuff on Hit RECord. I put out my interest in the Peace Corps in a real way and got some real interest back. I saw all of my favorite people and made sure they know that I love them.

I Pr’d every race I completed this year. That was amazing.

Overall, I’d say this year was pretty damn successful.

But again, this is weight loss blog. Or at least it was. I see myself at crossroads right now, being passed by opportunity left and right because of my inability to make a simple choice; to do whatever I have to do to be healthy… and define what healthy means so I know what I’m working towards.

I don’t know what 2013 will bring. I hesitate to make any major decisions or goals this year, except to make being healthy my number one focus. I also don’t know if I’ll be do as many races as I have the last few years. I’m kind of burned out on running right now, and I’d like to love it again. But I’ve noticed when I focus on running, I don’t focus on eating healthy or being healthy. If it’s going to be one or the other, its gotta be healthy.

2013 goals:

• To pass my Peace Corps physical upon my invitation to a program
• Attend my family reunion in July
• Define: Healthy, and obtain it
• Start saving money for Life after the Peace Corps
• Go somewhere exciting for Spring Break
• Learn another language
• Do a better job of keeping this blog updated, and making topical content.

I hope everyone had a wonderful New Years and 2013 is one for the books!

What are your New Years Resolutions?