What did I do this month? It feels like a whole lotta nothin’.

My goals for August were:

Goals for August

• Continuing training to complete a 5k by August 21st
• Buy New Shoes
• Run an entire 5k on August 21st
• Limit Coffee and eating out to once a week apiece (an effort to save money, not calories)
• Keep my room clean so I can exercise in it!
• Don’t forget I registered for one class (business law 1) this semester that starts on August 29th’
• Find at least 4 guest bloggers for September
• Continue working on the quality of my blog so it looks a bit more profesh.
• Get at least two more long walks in (9-13 miles)
• Do strength training at least 3 days a week
• track my food via myfitnesspal and try to stay within calorie limits
• Weigh in every week.

I bought new shoes. I really did my best to limit the coffee, but still bought it about three times a week. Only cleaned my room yesterday. Started my Business Law class. Went on one 10 mile walk. Weighed in Every week, even if I didn’t record it.

Things I didn’t do:

Take my blog past its beginning setup after moving to wordpress. Find any guestbloggers (if you want to, all you have to do is ask! Please? Pretty Please? ). Track my food via myfitnesspal. Do strength training three times a week. Run an entire 5k on August 21st.

Not going to lie. I’m kind of disappointed in myself. I can’t do it all, I guess. The thing is, this entire month I never felt like I was trying to do anything. Like I was looking for excuses to curl up inside myself and hide from the world. Maybe thats what I pulled off. The problem with that kind of behavior is, nothing gets done, nothing changes, and nothing gets better.

When I’m under stress (and the beginning of this month was quite stressful, indeed) I tend to shut down. I could swear its only been a week or two since I was actively trying to be proactive, but the truth is its been a month.

The punishment for living this way is getting fat and staying fatter. And I haven’t done anything to deserve this punishment, so why am I living like I do?

Despite my relative self destruction this month, I’ve done really good at some other things. I’ve lost weight despite of my best efforts not to. I’ve walked home from work every single day. I go on walks at least once every day during work.

So whats going to change this month?

Well, for starters, everything I’ve been working so hard towards is coming to a head in two weeks. Only two weeks left until I go to Hawaii! It seems impossible that its already here, that I should be planning what to pack, and deciding on the right moment to get my eyebrows waxed, and how I’m going to pick up my mom from the airport.

going this weekend!

My Goals for September:

• Go to Hawaii
• Don’t spend all my money before I get there
• Don’t spend all my money before I come back
• Make sure my bills are paid and my cats are taken care of
• Go Labor Day Sale shopping
• Buy a Nikon d3100
• Get my eyebrows waxed
• Get my mani/pedi from the spa using my Groupon
• Don’t kill my mom while she’s here/we’re there

Should be pretty simple, right?

You’ll notice there are no exercise goals mixed in, nor are there food related goals. I’m pretty confident in my ability to walk 13.1 miles at this point. I might need to build up a little higher lung capacity simply because of all the cigarettes I’ve been smoking. But I’ve got bigger things to worry about right now.

For one, my class needs to be a priority. I didn’t do so well last semester, and that really bothered me. For two, I’m still volunteering with the Anchorage International Film Festival, and while the easy part is almost over, the really hard/stressful/I-feel-like-a-fraud part is coming, and quickly at that. For three, did I mention I’m going to Maui, Hawaii?